young adult life crisis

Some people knew what they wanted to do since high school. They have it all figured out…all planned. I really thought I was one of those people. I mean, I’m a type A personality, planner, organizer and controller of all things possible, but I still find myself at a fork in the road. I can not believe I don’t know what to do with my life. It astounds me.

I only make things harder by constantly compare myself to anyone who has reached some sort of success whether by working hard for it or not. I even find that I am jealous of my husband’s multiple talents and wish he could share a bit of them with me (which he has graciously tried to do per my requests), but my self-doubt and insecurity has prevented me from following any of my dreams. I’m not sure what my dreams are now and I wonder if that would still be the case if I had the confidence, drive and motivation needed for success.

Well, here’s to admitting that I find myself at the place where I so readily judged other for being at. Thankfully, now I can truly sympathize with others in this circumstance. I will be able to relate to and understand my friends, parents and most importantly my kids. My previous framework would have made that impossible. I’m thankful for that and I have hope that I’ll figure it out eventually.

“To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable. Faith means believing the unbelievable. Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.”

 

overgrowth

“The point is this: whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows bountifully will also reap bountifully.”

Ideally, we all want to grow. We want to mature and become wiser and ideally we should do everything we can to make that happen. But it’s not that simple. Growing in incredibly difficult and takes an entire lifetime (which still isn’t enough).

Growing is a change of perspective, attitude and heart. Whatever you value in life will be your ultimate focus and that focus is what leads you either toward growth or regression. Sometimes we value justice and other times we value ourselves. Some values are intentional and others are not.

We can’t always control what we value and what we invest our energy and thoughts into. If it was as easy as it sounds than I’m sure we would all be better people, but it doesn’t mean we should stop trying.

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on knowing

“We can know only that we know nothing. And that is the highest degree of human wisdom.”